Motivation... Who has it?!

  Tuesday, we had another PT. It was rather difficult, but the point is to make it so hard that you think you can't go any further. When that happens, I usually just push myself harder. This PT made me want to puke, but I don't like to show that my body is saying enough. So instead, I kept it in even if it meant swallowing, yeah, gross. I've learned to never anticipate, so when people ask me what time is it or what we're doing next I just tell them you'll find out soon or just to keep going until we stop; however, a lot of people aren't motivated as much as they should be. I know I am, because, well, I'm doing a whole project on it! Also, there are personal things that keep me motivated for everything not just PT. Private Llambes, a Marine on RA, said sometimes all you have is motivation. Bootcamp gets tough and its a lot to endure that's why you need to be motivated. I see where he's coming from because several Marines have told me that there are times when they've been through so much and their bodies have endured as much as they could, but they had to keep on going. Tuesday also brought out a lot of thoughts of squad leaders from poolees. It felt great that one of the kids actually went up to their recruiter and said this is the only squad leader that I see is motivated and does his best to motivate others as he put his hand on my shoulder. Also, when I was waiting for a ride home another poole, Veliz, came up to me. He said, "Hey man I just wanted to let you know that you're one of the few people that I can look at and I feel motivated by you." This really meant a lot to me simply because Veliz has been there a lot longer than I have and he's just a beast. He's one of the best poolees we have. It was nice to know that someone I kind of look up to, also looks up to me. I feel like I am a great squad leader just because I like to take charge. I am a friend before and after PT I will joke around all day before PT, but once PT starts, I tend to get a little... aggressive. I need them to respect me, and they won't respect me if I'm nice.